I need help!!!

Just wanted to write this down because I’m starting to find it really annoying. Has anyone ever experience some weird brain screaming thing? Like when you read or talk to yourself the voice that you hear in your mind just screams or speaks in a loud voice. 

I think it sounds really weird when I type it out here. 

But just loud voices screaming into your ears.. ya. Because it feels very uneasy and painful. And after that I’ll just get a bunch of headaches. And also it feels like the whole world becomes so big and you feel so small and hyper aware of your surrounding!! HAHA! Its just weird and I wanted to bring it up. 

Maybe i’m going insane.

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Heyooo! Another short post!! Just to get it off my chest.

I have tons of work to do. But screw it school has been crazy so it’s time to chill here. (and no one would come here either.. maybe except Nikki and now YanTong) Hehe~

So as some of you have known I changed my hair color to BLUE (not green) a week ago and have been receiving a lot of compliments and some comments from people. Especially from strangers<3 And I absolutely have not regret changing it.

And why did I do it? Because it has been my goal and desire to change it since secondary 2! Like I have enough of brown. Brown and black can get out of my life for now. I’m in an Arts course I can do whatever the hell I want. It’s my own hair so if it bothers you too bad. If you prefer it brown TOO BAD! If you think I’m prettier with my natural hair well I don’t need your advice on how to be pretty because I’m not here to satisfy you (:

It’s my own hair so if it bothers you too bad. If you prefer it brown TOO BAD! If you think I’m prettier with my natural hair, well I don’t need your advice on how to be pretty because I’m not here to satisfy you (: If you hate on my hair well too bad it’s not your head. The only time I’ll change it is if my bestfriends tells me not to get it (: So don’t even try to convince me to go back to the boring old days of mine. I love natural hair or brown don’t get me wrong, I just don’t like it ON ME.

Also to anyone out there that face critics that just pull you down, don’t let it affect you. It’s your own body your own face. Do what you want with it as you please no one can judge you but yourself. If you think you are making the right decision go ahead. Be happy and pretty ❤ byes~

Relationships are ???

Okay, I will just spend 15 minutes writing (I have a timer right beside me). So if it sounds like I just left it hanging I’m sorry… I’ll continue next time because I don’t have much time to write nowadays ):

But I would like to talk about relationships. Like recently so many of my friends are struggling with that and it’s starting to affect me. Not that I don’t want them to share their problems with me, I am more than willing to help all my friends as much as possible. But seeing so many of my precious friends getting hurt or struggling just hurts me too… Like who dare make them feel like that!! But it’s neither’s fault, it just happens and what can I do other can hear them out and comfort them. I feel so useless sometimes.

And what’s more, I’m struggling too… I’m just a stupid overthinker that has no balls to do things. After hearing everyone’s opinions and things they don’t like their s/o to do, I become more self-conscious and try not to be the desperate asshole that looks like she just wants to get into a relationship. (basically a slut lul) But I’m not.. I just feel so pressured and tired I just don’t want to hurt others or be hurt. Plus whenever I see him, I just can’t help but stare and I feel like a creep. D:

I have no experience in r/s or if I ever tried it just gave me a horrible experience and left me with regrets. How would I put this… Like I’m scared now. To even initiate a convo or like someone. So yeah, I guess this rant is over.

I’m sorry if I was just plain annoying, or repeating something over and over again. I JUST WANNA WRITE IT DOWN! haha So yeah feel free to comment anything c: I need help ;u;

Birthday WishList <3

I just really wanna write so badly… Plus I think I should update my blog once in awhile :”)

  • A unicorn onesie
  • Swamplandia! -Karen Russell
  • Astroneer the game
  • Hooded Sweatshirt
  • soft iPhone 7 case (some cute design like sushis)
  • Chrome nail powder<3
  • iridescent/pink chrome nail polish ( please no gel)
  • LED light for nails !! (please don’t get expensive ones)
  • matte top coat polish
  • pink/purple/blue hair dye c:
  • lipstick near the pale purplish pink color (matte or glossy is fine)
  • cute socks (please no ankle socks)
  • net stockings but the white one instead?
  • any haikyuu stuff! Plushie will be nice<3 NO more figs plz ;u;
  • IF YOU COULD GET ME FUKURODANI’S JERSEY/JACKET ILL LOVE YOU FOREVER
  • make up in general idk :”)

Read or Watch things in context please

Disclaimer: I’m not against people who are vegan or vegetarian. It’s just those uneducated ones that get so much on my nerves that I have to make this post. 



I am so done with PETA. Like… i love that you share videos of people saving dogs and other animals that were either abused or tortured or left to die by us and that is very honourable. BUT somethings I just can’t take myself to feel as much and agree with. I don’t have concrete evidence right now but i have read that PETA is getting so much money just to put animals to sleep???? To sleep???!! While other shelters and volunteers are trying their best to help animals get homes and let them live their full life. Soooo I’m a bit sceptical when it comes to donating to such an organisation. I would rather do my research first than randomly donate to one thinking that I’m doing good. But sadly soooooo many people are not :-)).

Like showing how octopus can’t be eaten raw because chopping their legs in front of them is wrong??(can be subjective but it’s so ridiculous) because they say octopus have feelings too so what about plants? So what are you gonna do about that vegans huh? What was your intention to becoming a vegan. I can’t stand uneducated people turning vegan just becoz they saw an ant getting tortured and oh no FEELS! Like you ripe the fruits out of trees, you chop up fresh vegetables on the chopping board in front of other veges. All these plants have feelings too you know? When they lose a limb they know, when they lose a fruit they know too. So that’s why they grow back. True pain might not be something they will feel. But just because plants feel things differently from us doesn’t mean they don’t have feelings at all.

And taking a video 30 years ago where people experimented on monkeys that might actually have a cure for blind people? Yes, experimenting on animals is wrong but that video was so old…. and preaching as though people are still doing it now to that extend… A lot of companies have actually stopped animal testing and researchers are trying their best to cut down the usage of such cruelty. But to say as though that the situation is still the same since how many years back… that’s a little too much.

And where will we have been without all the sacrifice the animals made for us. How would we be able to advance so much in such a short time. Some things are inevitable and I may sound heartless… but its the fact. Unless PETA thinks it’s alright to experiment on humans I’m fine with that.


I love this quote/paragraph too much.

A number of studies have shown that plants feel pain, and vegetables are picked and often eaten while still alive. Animal rights activists are often in the news, but has anyone ever protested for vegetable rights?

Phil Cohen, Sydney, Australia

The More You Know

※I’m not targeting anyone here. It’s just a general observation that I want to share.

 

So for those that know me, you see me as this happy-go-lucky austistic kid. HAHAHA! Yeah, that’s me. I love to make people around me happy and positive! *ü* I would even do my best to please everyone and make friendships that are all equally precious.

But I’m not dumb, especially when it comes to guys. All your words and actions, hell I already know what you are trying to do from the start. But it’s fun to play along as a little girl, cluelessly swept away with my feelings. (have to admit sometimes I get swept away too much, but I always have trustworthy girl friends to keep me in check)

I really hate it when guys think that they are much more mature than girls although they are older. Think that they are smooth af, covers all they plots, when it’s just so obvious. What’s even more cringe worthy? When they be prideful, but fails. HAHA!! I don’t blame them though, I know they are just kids and are still underdeveloped. *ü*

And I’m not saying that I understand everything all the time, or that I look down on guys. No, I don’t. But I do give opportunities for guys to tell me their side of the story. Most of the time when they do, I really appreciate it. But some princesses that are stuck in their tiny ass little world can’t seem to understand it and thinks that I am just looking for attention? /rolls eyes ten million times/ Look at the big picture please, get out of your self-absorbed world, it’s reality! So deal with it and stop whining.

7df2f065e044d6f93149fceaedc23c5695642413d158b054eacaddb89f81b55d.jpgProblems will keep coming, situations will not go your way all the time. Looking at the cup half empty or half full won’t make it any better! Look at it as a whole so that you know what to change and what not too. It’s simple to say okay, but would you do it even if it means to step out of your comfort zone?

~Anna~